I am Confused

I just wrote this at 22:56 on 20 April 2012 - Friday.

 
 

Every step I take leads me nowhere,
Every word I say isn't good enough,
How many tears until I'm dry from the inside?
How many falls does it take, till I can't get up?

And my eyes are closed,
My mouth is open,
How many words,
How long to keep hurting?

My feet are numb,
My arms are left high,
High, reaching for you,
High... reaching for the sky.

I am so lost, too lost to find my way back,
Struggling behind these walls, inside my mind,
And I'm trying so hard to find the light,
Save myself from what I cannot hide.