Lost City - Chapter One

A girl wakes up in a beautiful place and doesn't know where she is and worse who she is.

 
 

I opened my eyes and I could feel my head pounding, "It hurts so badly." I told myself as I tried to open my eyes. When my eyes were finally opened to slits I took in the room I was in. It was beautiful. The sun was streaming in; the walls were brilliant blue, like the sky. There was one of those small couches, long sides of a huge window overlooking a beautiful view of a meadow. I sat up in my bed and rubbed at a sore bump on my head. It felt recent. I looked around and concentrated on the room, but I just couldn't remember anything. I didn't know this room, I didn't know this bed, come to think of it I didn't know my name.

I pulled my legs towards me and felt the tears sliding down my cheeks and felt them seeping into my pajama top. I felt so afraid. I didn't know who I was.

Crying I got out of bed and started pacing around the room. "Why can't I remember anything?" I thought to myself. I started touching things, hoping it would jolt my memory. I touched stuffed animals, teddy bears, the clothes in the closet. Nothing happened. I searched through drawers for pictures but I found none, not even a single photo. Things were in boxes stacked against the wall. That was weird too.

Nothing was familiar to me, nothing. I looked into the beautiful Victorian like mirror by the dressing table and looked at myself. A button nose, green eyes, long black hair. A face I didn't know. I reached up and felt the bump on my head, it was so sore. I saw a bandage on my head that I didn't notice when I felt the bump. There were scratch marks on my arms, and red marks on my hand, and around my wrists. I felt some pain in my midriff area and lifted my top and saw a blue bruise there.

I tried to concentrate and looked at the room again. I tried to remember, anything. I got out of bed and as I lifted my hand to the handle of the door I saw it turning and a woman entered the room. The woman enveloped me in a hug. She didn't look familiar at all, but the sight of her made me uneasy. "Oh Jesse, you're finally awake," she said. "Jesse..." I thought to myself. My name was Jesse. Who was this woman though? I had no idea. "I'm sorry but... I can't remember anything. I don't know who I am and I don't know you. Everything feels so messed up. I feel like I'm stuck in a dark room that I can't escape. Everything feels unfamiliar. Everything feels wrong. I looked up at the woman and she hugged me again and replied, "Oh Jess, the doctor said the bump on your head in the car accident would cause some damage, but I didn't think it would be damaged like this. I'm your Mom Jess, and you are my beautiful baby girl."

The woman looked at me lovingly, possessively even. I felt safe and scared at the same time. She knew my name, she seemed to love me. She was my mother right, so why did I feel like this. I clung to my mother and held on for life. I took in the sweet smell of her perfume hoping it would trigger a memory, anything.

I had so many questions for her. "Uh Mom... What happened to me. I can't remember anything." "Sit down, over here on the couch Jess and I'll explain." I sat down and listened. "About a month ago we were moving Jess. You helped me pack up all the boxes, you said goodbye to your friends, and we were so happy to get another chance, a fresh start. We struggled back in Bloomberg where we used to live because I lost my job, but I found a job in the Lost City where we are living now. On our drive here we were in a car accident. You didn't listen as usual when I told you to put your seat belt on. So you were badly injured when the car crashed. You were in a coma for two weeks, it was a mild concussion, so the doctors discharged you and I got to take you to your new home." That's why you don't remember anything Jess because everything is new.

She reached up and touched my cheek and continued. "Don't worry Jess things will be ok. The doctors said in a few weeks you'll be as good as new. Now would you like some of your favorite pancakes? If that won't jolt your memories I don't know." She smiled at me and I smiled back. A mother made pancakes right and a mother showed that she cared like this woman, like my mom was showing she cared about me. "I'd love that mom," I replied and followed her to the kitchen. I didn't know who I was, but if anyone could fill in the blanks my mom could, right?

Just For You

Hey, hope you like this poem! Please let me know what you think.

 
 

I can't pretend that I don't love you,
But I can hide it deep down inside,
I won't tell you how you make me feel,
I'll just sit back, relax, and hide.

I won't say your eyes are enhancing,
Or that you have a perfect smile,
But, baby it's still killin' me how,
My letters sit unopened in a pile.

If I can't talk to you in person,
At least read what I have to say,
'Cause this is pure torture,
Living like this from day-to-day.

I accepted your wish to ignore you,
Just as I guess I should,
But boy, in my heart, Imma wishing,
To tell you, if only I could.

I love you, I love you, I love you,
Nothing in the world can change that fact,
And I'll wait here forever,
For you to just take me back.

Yeah,
You walk each day,
To a new destination,
You run away,
From your entire generation,
You cry silent tears,
As you see families around you,
You sob, deep sobs.

You have no idea what to do,
You wait so long,
For someone to notice you're gone,
You sleep hidden away,
Hiding always from dusk to dawn,
You wish someone cared,
Yet no one even see your pain,

It hurts you when,
No one even ask for your name,
You need real love,
Yet you don't know where to find it,
It's not your fault,
You're trying for it, bit by bit.

So what? We know. You're spoiled,
You are a selfish girl no less,
Who cares if you've got money,
You are no pretty princess!

A crown for your 16th birthday?
Really? You want to act so young?
Why don't you get a playhouse?
And then go bust a lung?

Why don't you go cry to your mommy,
Cause you ain't got no friends,
We don't like no cheaters,
That's why we brought it to an end.

Okay so have a DJ,
It's not like you're the only one.
Sorry, I do love ya,
But you're just to spoiled hun.

Every conversation you brag about something,
Whether you went shopping or got forty bucks,
Well listen, it's time you realized,
We don't care about your luck!

So go shopping, with that money,
And maybe leave us alone?
Sorry, but you're annoying,
So you're going on your own.

Call back when you've changed please,
And maybe, start telling the truth,
Whatever, we're just sick of everything,
Always being all about you!

ogether we're perfect,
Together we're wonderful,
But we can't stay this way,
Forever...
Something won't work out.

If I ain't got you with me,
Right here by my side,
I go crazy, I love you,
Baby, you make me happy,
Whenever...
You're right here with me.

How can I go without you,
When did it start falling,
How can you just walk away,
Baby together is the way,
Why'd you have to leave.

Everyone smiled at us,
Knowing we were in love,
But boy, that didn't stop you,
No...
From ending our relationship.

I'm kinda stuck in the middle,
I'm both sad and relieved,
Glad you did it now,
Instead...
Of waiting till we were much older.

Oh, but,
If I ain't got you with me,
Right here by my side,
I go crazy, I love you,
Baby, you make me happy,
Whenever...
You're right here with me.

How can I go without you,
When did it start falling,
How can you just walk away,
Baby together is the way,
Why'd you have to leave.

Oh yeah, why'd you have to leave me,
Cause baby,
I don't know what to do,
If I ain't got you.

Sitting in the sand watching how the sun sets,
Listening to the tides reminds me of the dreadful sins,
Those sins cause regrets,
In my youth is where it begins,
My actions and a saint would be hard to contrast,
Those days have ended at last.

"Sorry," was a word I never used,
It explains why I cause her grief,
Her patience and tolerance I abused,
Now it is late to say sorry,
Her body change like the autumn leaf,
Rest in peace and be at glory,
Now nothing would get her worry.

 know what I want,
It doesn't seem possible right now,
For me to be the best,
For me to never back down.

I don't know how to get there...

All I know is...

I want to fly away,
Live the day,
Love everything that comes my way,
'Coz it's my life,
Oh yeah... my life,
And I wanna start living it today.

I want to be the master,
I want to be the queen,
I want to live in a palace,
Reap all the luxury that it would bring.

I don't want to shy away,
But laugh and say,
Let's face it, come what may,
And I want to pray...

I want my family to love,
My friends to care,
And I want to find that special someone,
Whose existence is so rare.

Oh...

I want to fly away,
Live the day,
Love everything that comes my way,
'Coz it's my life,
Oh yeah... my life,
And I wanna start living it today.

The Deserted Fairground

A poem about a deserted fairground.

 
 

The gates swung open,
The sky was pitch black,
The cold air hit my face.

Like a lost soul I searched frantically,
To find someone, anyone,
But it was as if the fairground was deserted somehow.

The rides had been left abandoned,
The merry go round moved slowly by itself,
Eerie Halloween music could be heard from the ghost train.

Ironic as it was a few days before,
I would have given anything for some peace and quiet,
My wish had been granted and I was not happy about it.

I shivered in the cold gloomy night,
My mother had told me to wear a coat,
And as usual she had been right.

I closed my eyes if only I hadn't wandered off,
If only I had done as I was told,
I wouldn't be here alone,
Out in the cold.

If Only Things Were Different

A poem about all the things that happens in the world and if only they could be stopped.

 
 

If only people never cheated on one another,
People never fought with each other,
Someone wasn't judged because of the color of their skin.

If only there were no more killings,
No more murders,
If only there was peace and happiness everywhere.

If only people weren't judged because of their looks,
But because of their personality.

If only people learnt to live with one another without arguing,
If only there were no more fighting and wars.

If only people had more friends than enemies.
If only people realized how wrong they are,
By changing for the better today.

I am Confused

I just wrote this at 22:56 on 20 April 2012 - Friday.

 
 

Every step I take leads me nowhere,
Every word I say isn't good enough,
How many tears until I'm dry from the inside?
How many falls does it take, till I can't get up?

And my eyes are closed,
My mouth is open,
How many words,
How long to keep hurting?

My feet are numb,
My arms are left high,
High, reaching for you,
High... reaching for the sky.

I am so lost, too lost to find my way back,
Struggling behind these walls, inside my mind,
And I'm trying so hard to find the light,
Save myself from what I cannot hide.

hy do you say 'promise'?
When it's obvious that you're going to break that very promise.

Another broken promise,
Another lie comes out of your mouth.

How can anyone believe a word you say?
With every promise you break?

Foolishly people thought you'd change,
This whole promise breaking is driving people insane.

They have had enough of being conned,
They are going to another land.

Whether it's rain or sand,
If it's a land without broken promises,
The land is more than enough.